confession

recently im gettin irritated by the silliest matters and start to shout and scream at my friends! not that i want to demand i get angry with reasons always, but now-a-days it seems its true. my friends are very tolerant and mostly dont mind of my weird alien like behaviour. thats y like to pass my times with them. in this sense im very lucky.

i can remember when i was a kid of age 5/6 i started to beat one big brother of mine(25 yrs old at that time), just because he called me "chhamra". in my home village, kishorganj, it is the trend to call boy - "chhamra" and a girl - "chhemri"...:P... but i thought it was some kind of insulting. so beat him. there were numerous events of me screamin, shouting, beatin and be beaten by the others. coz mostly i used to fight with stronger ppl than me and.... a matter of fact is there are many like that in this world. my mom started to give a little Homeopathic treatment, and she demands i was changed!... i hope it was true. coz im willing to go through any "anger managment" program if available.

but i think my recent outbursts are caused by the bullshit job im doing. it is just killing me. im so much eager to change it. but cant. the greatest reason of all is that - im not from buet! this is just crazy. we even see employee wanted to be skilled with CSE things, with a EEE degree from buet!... this is outrageous. one frnd of mine frm iut is in huwaei, and he was asked, by a eee employee from aktel (much more paid), - "what is IP? what is a router?? ...." and so on. coz its his job to knw about them!! hell!!! and he doesnt knw a bit but he got the job. what kind of corruption is that?! if the private sectors of bangladesh has such corruption then its very much reasonable that WE ARE the champion. and we will be for the rest of the century.