messed up interview

i had waited long for a chance to give an interview in any telecom company in bangladesh. started giving my cv from the september last year. and it is May 2006, and i got one call for interview atlast in Rankstel. though it wasnt easy. i have a friend in there. yes thats the hidden reason of getting my call. it has proved once again, that in our country you wont get a fair chance to fight in your field. you must have someone to back you up. i felt released and guilty at the same time. i am in a split mind, one prayin to get the job and the other not to. i want the job, coz im interested to in the telecom field [coz it has money and prospect], also i dont like my current job. i dont want this particular job, coz if i get it, i have to get it by cheating. now im not sayin im the angel, never done a bad word in life. im sayin if i have to cheat, i must cheat for something more valuable. say getting a job in GP or Ericsson is good enough. muhahahahah.

what i have learnt in the real life is really amazing. before getting the job in Vonair i faced another interview in BJIT, another leading s/w develpoer company from Japan. i was honest with them, answered all the questions well and accurately. so i was asked at the end -
- whats ur future plan?
me: i wish to earn money now. will do the job for at least 2 years, and in the meantime prepare for a scholarship to do my masters.
-u see, uve done well in the interview. but u have to keep it ur mind that, we prefer a reliable, moderate programmer than an unreliable, good programmer!
i nodded as if i understood at that time. the thing was clear later, that it implied they are not hiring me, coz i want to do higher studies. all my friends and family scolded me well for being honest!! so in Vonair when they asked what my future plan was, i said, i will never do my masters. y will i? if im satisfied with the job and the money i dont want any masters!
so they hired me sayin - look we r hiring you only for ur ethics and interest in the field.....:-S

apparently they have thanked me and hired my for losing my ethics. yes thats what reality is.

i had waited for the interview long. which made me exhausted and lost any interest whatsoever to try for it. i was careless and tensed and messed up the total interview. couldnt answer silliest questions. at one point the GM asked me to draw the GSM architecture on a paper. i was triyin hard to write it down, but my hand started betraying me. so the GM offered me another pen, "here, this pen is good".... i blushed and smiled a little and said, "thank u sir, but this pen is ok too. its just my hand is shaking!!" .... :P.... so at the end it seemed like i have made a circus out of myself. i was laughing, they were too. i wish i could see my face at that time! how do i look when i act like a dumb! .... hmmm